I can still remember waking up at 4am because I couldn’t sleep at all thinking about what will happen to me and my family as we face being evicted from our house. One of my fears has become a reality. I knew all along that we were going to face this eviction as we were undergoing foreclosure on our house. I felt nothing seems to go right in my life at that time though I have been praying to God non stop, I felt I wasn’t being heard.
So I cried out to the Lord that morning and asked Him to give me an answer on what I should do, what should I think about our situation and where should I go from the situation that my family is into. I opened my bible and this was what I found, Romans 12:1-3 which reads:
1Therefore I urge you, brethren, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies a living and holy sacrifice, acceptable to God, which is your spiritual service of worship.2And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect. 3For through the grace given to me I say to everyone among you not to think more highly of himself than he ought to think; but to think so as to have sound judgment, as God has allotted to each a measure of faith.…
I realized how fear and worry has dominated my life for the past 3 years as I knew that we might face foreclosure on our house as we were not able to pay for its monthly amortization. For the longest time, I was holding on to my fear of not losing our house. And so I would often find myself in an aggressive state of earning a huge income and working hard so we can save up the money that we needed to pay for the house. Fears and Worry are part of this world. Too often, people give in to worry without realizing how deadly it is. When you get to the root of it, worry is a sin. Worry certainly doesn’t come out of faith, and Romans 14:23 (AMP) states that “whatever does not originate and proceed from faith is sin.”
Most of the time, worry is based on one sin in particular: selfishness. Usually when we worry, we’re concerned about how our selfish desires are not being fulfilled. The more selfish desires you have, the more you have to worry about, and the more complicated your life becomes. I was worrying about my selfish desire to keep our house and to be able to pay for it but I forgot to put my faith in God that He will provide shelter for me and my family.
The one that struck me most was the part saying “Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect.” I have been reading the book of Rick Warren, The Purpose Driven Life and almost took me a year to finish it when it was suppose to be 40 days reading only. After reading a few chapters of the book, I just had this big question in my mind what could be God’s purpose for me here on earth and how will I be able to find it out. And as I was crying out to the Lord of my current situation, I knew in my heart that God has a purpose of why He is allowing our eviction from the house to happen and I just needed to listen to what God wanted me to learn from it. If this is God’s will, then so be it.
God works in mysterious ways and God blessed us with our network marketing business and big money was really coming so fast that I forgot it was all from God. We conformed to the patterns of the world by spending our income mostly with material things and satisfying our earthly desires.I thought so highly of myself that I am able to build a network marketing business as easy as I can in just 2 months of doing it. I thought this was the answer to our problem, we could finally pay for the house so we can avoid foreclosure. The problem is we did not save up first before we spent the money we were earning as we thought it will go on forever.
But God has His way of convicting me of such thoughts and actions. As we got so excited with how big we were earning every week in just 2 months time of doing the business and as we thought that it will continue and the income will get bigger, we got complacent in our business.
We thought that we could rest for a while as the income was coming in anyway and that we have built a system that will make the business work. I never thought that God will teach me the lesson to not think highly of myself by bringing our business down after 4 months of building it.. Our network stopped working when we also took a rest from working and it was a learning experience that if you want to build your network, you have to work for it for more than 4 years to really experience the residual income you are looking for. And the biggest lesson, as I reflected on the passage “For through the grace given to me I say to everyone among you not to think more highly of himself than he ought to think: but to think so as to have sound judgment, as God has alloted to each a measure of faith.”
After reflecting that morning on how God has spoken to me about our current situation, I felt peace in my heart knowing that I have to trust God that He will provide us something better, to allow God to transform and renew my mind so that I may understand what His true will is for me. Psalm 34:8 says “Oh, put God to the test and see how how kind he is! See for yourself the way his mercies shower down on all who trust in him!”
God has provided us a better home for our family where we can stay temporarily while waiting for God’s will to provide us a permanent home for our family. I am so thankful that God has always provided for us and has always blessed us. My God is really an awesome God who really works wonders for me.
Psalm 34: 29 also says, “The good man does not escape all troubles-he has them too. But the Lord helps him in each and everyone.” Holding on to this promise from God, I know in my heart that every fear and worry that will trouble me while I am living here on earth is going to be handled by God. There is no point for me to worry about things that I can entrust to God. I am certainly sure that God will take care of everything for me.
I would like to share this prayer from the book I have been reading everyday, Life on Purpose, which you can use when you are also facing a situation similar to mine.
“Lord, today I surrender my whole life to You. I ask that You transform all my troubles into triumphs, for your glory. Help me to spend time in Your presence daily through prayer and Bible study so that you can impart Your truth to me. Thank You that as I trust in You and seek Your will, You’ll direct me in the paths of Your greatest blessings!”